I am so stressed out right now. I can feel myself wanting to cry

Some roommates are sketchy as fuck here...

I just really want to meet an amazing country boy but I go to TWU… This sucks!

When you talk to me about fucking other dudes I seriously want to tell you to go fuck yourself. How would you like to hear about my sexcapades? Complete lack of respect. Why do I talk to you again?

I'm a photographer. (Not in the major yet) but no one out here wants photos taken of them. Even when I offer them for free. Not only do I need to grow my portfolio but I love showing people how beautiful they really are. It kills me because that's what makes me feel good. Is making others feel good and I can't do that here it seems. I'm losing it.

1. I'm in my 30s, and I've never been kissed.
2. Following #1, I have never had sex, and I don't think I ever want to.
3. Sometimes, (many many times) I ponder just not doing this whole grad school thing anymore.
4. I am so so so so so broke, and I have so so so so so many bills.
5. I think black men are the most beautiful men on the planet, but I have a secret sexual attraction to white men.
6. I say no to dates because I am deathly afraid that it's a dogfight (not actual fighting dogs, I mean as in taking the ugliest person to a party to win money).
7. I am afraid that I will be alone for the rest of my life.
8. I am so very lonely.
9. There are some people I honestly wish would just die (yes, I know this is horrible, that's why I am anonymously confessing it here).
10. I wish I was brave enough to admit many of these points to my friends and family, but I don't think I could bear their looks of confusion, disgust, and shame.

I miss you. The old you. Two years into a relationship and I couldve never imagined things will take this turn. I keep going back to someone I dont know anymore, yet I still cant get over the old you...

I want to have sex in the dorms just to see how many noise complaints I can rack up. If only I lived in the dorms