Wednesday, 12 November 2014 09:49 PM
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#7117 I confess I'm in a relationship that's getting serious, but I miss having sex with whoever I want. Call me a whore, but life was just so much simpler when I could just hit it and quit it. Now I have to stay. And listen to his feelings, all the time.
Wednesday, 12 November 2014 09:22 PM
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#7114 So, it's Wednesday, obviously, and I've had a lot on my mind for a while now, so where better to dump all your feelings than to perfect strangers, right? My confession is, I feel like the biggest failure right now. For the past few years, I've gotten a little depressed this time of year, I guess from losing my dad. The first two times, it was understandable I guess. It sucked, but I dealt with it and moved on. This year is different though. I don't know if it's the stress of school, the anxiety of preparing to start my life outside of academics and getting everything together to join the working world (professional working world, yes I do have a job currently), or the fact that I'm missing the hell out my dad, but I'm struggling right now. I haven't been able to shake these feelings this time and it's only getting worse. I'm in the early stages of wedding planning (yes I'm thrilled about THAT at least, I know I should be) but I cry like a little kid every time the subject of "walking down the aisle" crosses my mind, and I feel like I've fallen that much further. Truth is, it's gotten to be too much, to the point I'm in tears every morning on the drive to classes. I'm barely passing anyway because I just can't find the motivation right now. To tie this all together, I feel like a failure because I've never been one to feel sorry for myself, to let my feelings or emotions get in my way. This has just really become much more complicated than I ever expected, and I've decided to take a break from school for a semester and just keep working while I try to figure out what I need to do. I just can't help but think I SHOULD be doing better than this by now.
Sincerely, just a girl who wants her happiness back for a little while
PS- I don't by any means believe that I've got it harder than some other people out there. I know we all struggle in some way. I just needed to get this out, even if no one but an Admin ever sees this, thanks