#24138 for people who have had david gepner for MA 351, how is he? Hows his teaching abilities
Also how is the MA 351 course setup?

#24137 Anyone play EU4 and want to help me beat back those pesky Ottomans?

Confession: I used to judge confessions but now find myself anonymously confessing.

#24136 I've always wished I was as intelligent and sensitive as I want to be, to the point of being deluded into thinking I was, but in reality I'm a pretentious idiot. I always seem to fail at making smart decisions and saying smart things in the moment. And when I do, it comes off as insincere, which is arguably worse I imagine.

My natural state essentially seems to be cold, emotionless, simple minded zombie. I'm being left behind in the world. I wish that early education didn't waste time in preaching the bullshit like D.A.R.E and abstinence and instead they taught in a very harsh but effective way the more useful truth of how everyone starts off with dreams and goals and things they want to do, but that life from second one is like starring in your own film or choose your own adventure novel and every little thing you do creates both a memory for yourself/building block for your future personality and a ripple effect to the wellbeing of those around you.

And at some point, you can fuck up in subtle ways (as in, something not as bad as murder, hate crimes, rape, child molestation, etc, but something that still ends your progress as a human who could be accepted in positive, loving, freeminded social circles) so badly or enough times that at any point in your life you can instantly go from someone deserving of empathy to someone who isn't. Just like that. You now have malignant heart cancer, and a form of contagious heart disease.

And despite the good you do after that point, that person might be who you are for the rest of your life. And any attempts at being a good person are pointless because in reality you will always be a hypocrite for attempting to be kind, smart, loving, etc. It is the equivalent of saying "I'm going to live a long, fulfilling life" when you have malignant heart cancer. It isn't the truth. Your attempt of behaving positive and loving is in and of itself a negative act because it mocks those who have those qualities in reality and can see through you.

In the end, the person who has been kindest for the longest wins (unless you want to be a part of society that is loved by haters and hated by lovers), as they should, and because of something bad that may have happened earlier in your life you unconsciously make mistakes while older that cause you to be a worse person. And then one day you wake up to the shit pile that is your life and you have to live with it. You are now of less worth as a human because of all these things.

You might be soothed into being told you are not worthless by a counselor or acquaintances, but the reality is they pander to you and you are not a good enough person to live the lifestyle you want to live, around the people you want to be around. All anyone can say is "go to church" or "work at a corporation", which are like personal hells to you since you want to be around lively, diverse, inspiring, loving environments and you are a believer of up-to-date science (AKA you follow and trust science to solve problems). So you construct this shaky personality of intelligence and sensitivity to get through life, but it is a constant balancing act because deep down you know you are not of much worth and are empty inside.

#24135 the lord blessed me with some cheeks so I spanked on a Sunday

#24134 The guys who I "talk" to are always pleasantly surprised of what a "freak" I am. I always get told that I look too cute and innocent to be so naughty.

What can I say?... He can take me home for dinner to meet the family, then after have dessert in the bedroom.

#24133 I just got an email saying I made the deans list for last semester. I'm pretty sure it was a mistake though.

#24132 I bought concert tickets and put them on my counter. Then I went out of town for a week. When I came back the tickets were gone. I thought I just misplaced them but having just moved out I've gone through every piece of paper in my apartment and they are nowhere to be found. I'm convinced that granite probably showed my apartment while I was out of town (since they like to do so without notifying me) and either they or the people looking at the apartment stole the tickets. That's the only logical explanation I can think of. I live alone. I dont have any friends. Nobody else has been in my apartment. Needless to say, I am pissed.

#24131 I'm a fat chick (size 12/14 usually) and while I'm sure I'm not the ugliest creature on God's green earth, as I receive compliments from girls regularly, I have yet to ever (yes, ever) receive any positive attention from a guy. I try my best to be friendly and open, and compliment others (no matter their gender). I also try my hand at flirting with guys but am always blown off. However, I still struggle with losing weight. While I know that going to Google for advice is about the worst thing you can do, I spent a lot of time reading articles written by guys on what they find attractive/unattractive in girls and nearly all of them said that being fat was the biggest, most major turnoff and that guys "just don't go for fat girls". I'm aware that those articles don't speak for all guys... but from my point of view, it really seems like they do, and that I'll never get the time of day from any guy ever unless I lose a lot of weight and lose it fast (college only lasts so long, after all). I went into college thinking that I'd graduate with a great degree, work for a while and make all the money, and then settle down with a husband and have some kids, but honestly at this point I'd gladly settle for a single compliment from a guy. I really just feel hideous inside and out and it sucks.