#18323 For some reason, I feel like there's no motivation or interest in life at all. I don't even feel as depressed as I used to either, I just don't see the point. It's all BS to me what society expects, improving yourself to be deemed dateable or outright lying to get anything started. Getting qualified for a job that may not even go anywhere.

I am just watching it all play out as a spectator now, watching other people live their lives.
Living a life I could never have, watching time fly by, year after year. Things won't get better now for me.

I feel sick of what I have become, I always thought I could turn things around if I really tried. I am just not capable, in a way I gave up on myself last year when things weren't working out when I tried. All the missed chances of any experiences with the opposite sex are left in the high school. All the drive for good grades, looking forward to a career, excitement about college, any life at all.

I have no idea where to go from here, my anxiety isn't as intense as it was in my teens. But what do I have to show for my life? How can I get the things I still desire, that my body and mind desires and can't have? I am no use to anyone, why do I even bother coming on this page to feel worse about being as I am still at this age? I think it's time to go.

#18322 I put dog shit in my dorm mates new LV's because I found out she stole my weeks worth of notes before our final. My grades are worth more than your ugly ass shoes.

#18319 I don't know why but i feel everyone is out to get me, i always come up with a plan to protect myself from normal people ahead of time before anything happens and i always thinking of your next move, its kinda crazy i guess and i hate when people say i'm crazy

#18320 I still kind of like some old U2 songs

#18321 I've formed such a close emotional bond with my body pillow that I would rather cuddle with it than an actual human being

#18318 I went out with a guy a while ago, and he slept with me twice before telling me he wasn't attracted to me. I'm terrified of getting intimate with my boyfriend now because I'm scared he'll do the same thing.

#18317 I sleep with a fan on to blow away my farts

#18313 Up until today, I had no idea Shakira was white