#21842 Thank you, Kyle, for the fun time at the Cactus on Thursday (1/21). It was a pleasure meeting such a swell guy as you. You is smart, you is witty, you is slick.

My confession: I'll be back for you.

#21841 If you watch the Oscars this year, you are racist and part of the problem that exists in white America.

#21840 Hey ceiling is making a lot of noise lol. And here I am liking wondering when me rofl.

#21839 Even after the campus being so huge, not a single close friend or a good female companion. If someone looking for the same feel free to comment.

#21838 Why are college kids so disrespectful to dining court workers? I've seen so many dumbass kids literally throw food all over the ground for fun. Leave their trays on the table and leave without taking it to the dishwashing area. Spill drinks all over the table and not clean it up. They wouldn't do this at normal restaurants why treat min wage dining court workers like shit? I'm not even a dining court worker.

#21837 As a guy, I long for female companionship. All my life, I've never even had a close female friend. I feel that the older I get, the harder it will be to make friends with women.

#21836 I want to have sex with my TA... hes 30... it seems I am always attracted to guys soo much older than myself... is that wrong? I don't trust guys my own age...

#21835 Have you ever just been completely done with something in your life? Like moved to a state where nobody liked you, so you were just done, you stayed inside as much as possible to avoid human interaction because you knew it would end badly? That's pretty much what I got going on, I got lied to, my mom moved to a small town when I joined the Army, she took my truck to haul her stuff there, that began the downward spiral. You see, I guess I'm not everybody's cup of tea, my first Sargent didn't like me very much, I wasnt overly aggressive, I was nice to those who hated my guts. Well there's a red phase, a white phase, a blue phase, and a red, white, and blue phase in bct. After completing each one I got sent to cmhs center for mental health services, where I took a long test, which took hours to complete, and then a 3 day pass off site. Once we got back to base, we were all handed papers saying that we didn't mentally pass but. I got depression, which I got later on... But I couldn't fight it, I just had to accept it and move on, once I got out of that, I flew back home where I was going to start my life over again. I signed up for classes at a local community college, after that my mom said to go drive her car to her and she would repay my trip along with my truck, so I said sure, classes didn't start for a few weeks. So I drove out there, and it turned out to be a lie, she didn't repay me the travel expenses, I did get my truck back though, which was like my last shred of the only time that was good in my life, until my mom totaled it out due to hail damage to pay off her debt... But the best part is that I got to sleep in a garage, my family all had extra beds and bedrooms, ac and heat in their houses, but that's too good for me, I got a garage that flooded when it rained, and was around 120-140 all day. Yep that was the lesson I got for listening to my mother... She didn't really do much for me as far as networking goes, she went around town telling everybody how I couldn't handle the army and had to drop out, so basically every place in town didn't hire this dishonored drop out (I'm not dishonored BTW, that's just sarcasm) except a hotel where I got to be a house keeper, I worked my way up the ladder so far that I eventually got a title change to grounds keeper... No hours available in the winter, so I went to work for the only other place in town that would hire me and that was as a galvanizer (those unfamiliar with this just need to know that it's basically 7x acid dipped metal, heated to 300 degrees, then dipped into a vat of liquid metal -toxic- and that's how galvanizing works) that job was so awesome, my lung capacity went from a straight edge guy on the verge of being fit, to a 70 yr old that smoked a pack a day his whole life... Did mom give a fuck, nope. Did anyone in the family? Nope. Did my friends back home? Yeah, they did... And you know what's sad, after galvanizing, I access up around $7,000, moved in with a buddy who showed more love than my mom n family, and it's sad because he was a cross dresser. One I had known for about a year of my life before joining the Army. While back there I got a job working for a batchaloret store (I know I spelled that wrong) I had to say I was gay and pull off the act in order to keep it, so that wasn't hard... But what sucked is I had a gf, who was in the process of cheating on me, which I found out later on, when I surprised her, by walking in on then doing it, followed by a push kick, to him, out the window, and then jumped on him n left. A month later I was on my way back to my mom's home, where I spent 3 days driving home an emotional wreck, followed by almost a year of nothing... My mom didn't give a single fuck about me that year either, I ate very little, moved very little, basically cried to sleep every day, didn't really bathe, or anything... Best part was, my family didn't give a fuck, my mom didn't really talk to me, my friends kept sending me pictures of themselves having fun n such, but alas I was in a room, lost, given up on, everybody in town at this out either didn't know me, or had a hatred of me. Funny, my moms an avid member of the church, pretty symbolic of this fucking world we live in... There's so much more but I know this is already tl;Dr, mixed with an unknown amount of autocorrect... So for the people who think their life is tough, decided to commit suicide, suffer from depression, or anxiety. I hope this can be some kind of relief off you shoulders, to know that no matter how fucked up your life may be, no matter what struggles you have in life, you can over come them. I'm not the best example, I ended up with a job paying $16hr, taking math classes, I'm up to trig -considering I honestly didn't have much school in my back ground, I don't think it's that bad- anyway, I hope this helped at least someone