Monday, 12 March 2018 08:40 PM
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#30897 You want the truth? Here's the truth. I think about you every day, I've never done that before, not with my exes, not with my mom, dad, family, friends, coworkers, not one single person... until you came along, then idk what happened, it was normal, wake up, shower, go to work, go to school, go home, do homework, go to bed, sometime's pop in video games or watch Netflix, then you come in, you interview me, you're honest, outgoing, adorable, you need background sounds and then you leave. You come back a few days later, you need another interview, and 3 otger to interview, I didn't know it then, but i liked you, I cashed out a few people helped you get the other interview, but in the process I got really jealous... I've never been jealous, what the hell is happening, I thought to myself... I pondered that for a while, n then you came back, somehow you memorized my name, and in that moment my crush developed, I had a want to learn all about you, know what you like, what you dislike, important dates, favorite everything... I kept it all in though, as employees and students aren't meant to date... as time passed a grew to admire you more and more, every time I saw you I kept thinking about how I wish I made you smile, but alas, I'm more of a father figure, but what am I to say when you tell me you have a sore throat? Get better? I hate that, I'll tell you to get cough drops, spirit, n some kind of broth, then like that you're gone, and I don't even know your name. The next time I see you, you're heart broken, on the verge of tears, my heart yells for me to tell you the truth but my brain tells me I'll get fired, so I stabs there in an urinate battle of what to say, rummaging through a Nikon words as my heart tries to get up from the 10 count... oh how I wish I could have told you that in my life time I've gone to 5 continents, tons of counties, met millions upon millions of people, networked like never before, and not one made me feel as amazing as you do when I see you for those few seconds. I honestly wanted to hug you, wipe away your tears and tell you how amazing you are, inside and out, how your presences makes the world a better place, how I've never seen someone as perfect in my whole life as you are, how I hope you don't change for anyone... but by the time you left I just felt more like shit for not saying anything... days passed without seeing you, they felt like months, work got worse. Management came down harder on everybody, a new coworker emerged from the depths of hell causing chaos and disarray at work. What was once a utopia quickly turned into the Olympics of throwing people under the bus. You started coming in after a while and every time you did my day would turn from pure hell on earth to the greatest day ever, I honesty knew what it felt like to be a dog waiting for its owner to come home, n the few lines of words we'd exchange felt like bliss on earth... this continued for a while until you stopped coming in, I began to miss you more and more until one day we exchanged looks, you were sitting with friends and your boyfriend, you didn't seem happy, it didn't seem like they gave you attention or the time of day... the last thing I heard before I left was, "if you do that you'll end up being my ex," all I could think of was I should have told you how I felt in January... since then I haven't seen you, but I've missed you, everything major in my life has just come about, my acceptance into grad school, an awesome summer job, my cars paid off, I have some free time, and all I want is to be with you, as weird as it is my life has been filed with so many downs, I've always crawled out but I've never felt full, I've never been complete, I've always had this part of me that was missing, and I've dated girls before that made me think that maybe a relationship isn't what i was missing, but ever since I've met you, i honestly think you're what's missing from my life... I wish you'd come back and see me one day