Im dating a guy thats almost 5 years younger than me. Im 19, hes 15.. is that horrible?!

When my boyfriend would tell me he loved me over the phone, I'd always cry because I had never heard anybody say they loved me and mean it.

I get so annoyed by how often I have to pee (nothing medically wrong with me, it's just the way my body is) that I've considered getting diapers just so I don't have to run to a toilet multiple times a day. But I know that's just me being lazy.

Today is going to be my first day going to class without makeup. I finally have the courage to do so, even though I only wore foundation (to cover up my blemishes) & mascara. Idk what people will say, do, talk about. I don't care anymore. I'm beautiful in my own skin. I hope someday all you lovely ladies, will have the courage to do the same! :)

At 19, I got a BJ from my best-friend's sister. She was 18 and hung around a different group. I had noticed that she a great body, nice tits and a real nice peronality.

Her parents (and brother) were out one night and she invited me in. This has been our "little secret" forever. But what she doesn't know, is that her brother also sucked my cock on many different occasions.

I feel lonely. I feel unworthy and unloved. Why would anyone want to be with me?

I might seem desperate, but that's because i've never had a relationship where I'm not abused or used. I just want a guy to like me for me and not use me or abuse me. I've completely given up on love, and love doesn't exist anymore. I want to feel wanted by at least one person. just one. i even feel like my "friends" think i just need pity. I get pushed around by people i thought i could trust, and laughed at for my passion. I can't seem to do anything right in anyones eyes. Is it just impossible to find one person to respect me for me...or is that to much to ask for

Sometimes I can't help but wonder what exactly is wrong with me. It's so difficult sometimes to fit in and I wish I was 'normal', even though I don't know what that is or even believe in it as a concept. I just wish I functioned more smoothly. I can't figure out if it's me or if it's everybody else. I like who I am, it just makes it hard to be happy.
Is it worth paying that price? My selfdom for superficial happiness? Is it really superficial? I"m so confused I just don't know what to do with myself anymore.