#sorrynotsorry Confessions

This goes to E.J.D. we met last year. Towards the end of fall semester. We became close. I thought I loved you. You became my whole world. I didn't know what to do you you pushed me to grow. You pushed me to be better. And it worked. But sadly I didn't realize anything until I had already destroyed the bond between us. You changed me for the better. Made me a better person. A funny person. I miss you all the time. Though I realized I never loved you as we both thought. Nay, i am not saying I didn't love you. I did. Nay as a lover but... as a brother. I know this may be strange to outsiders reading this but to you it will make sense. When I lost you I lost most of the family I had left. My foster parents who were kind enough to house me kicked me out. Me depression has gotten worse. Though I refuse to let anyone see that. I refuse to let people see I'm broken. All I wanted to do for the past 4 days is to talk to YOU. To hear your voice. But, knowing it wouldn't matter anyways I changed my number. You won't be able to contact me. And as much as it hurts, I did it so I don't mess things up more. I relish the memories I have of you. I wish I hadn't screwed up, but I did. I take full responsibility. Just yesterday I almost did the one thing that you talked me out of in November 2018. I didn't. I made a promise to you and I Will NEVER break said promise. I know it's meaningless to apologize so I'm not going to. Which as you know is a big step for me. I just want you to know I have faith we will talk again and we have a lot of catching up to do. E.J.D. even though you're younger than me, by a tad, you have become and shall remain mhy big brother. I love you man. -mr. Muppet

#31640 I love women that are into fitness and that workout a fair bit. It shows me how seriously they take their health. Just wish I wasn't shy that I cant bring myself to talk to them. Would love to have a workout partner for once.

#31639 I know it is not healthy but cannot stop comparing myself with my friends. Seems like they all got jobs and relationships and have a normal life. On the other hand, I am in my last semester, applied to 200 jobs and got nothing. I would blame myself if I was lazy but I am not :( Tired of feeling like a failure all the time. Is anybody else out there feeling like this?

#31638 You know that feeling when a ball of wax rolls around in your ear and you're fishing for the right shape object to dig it out, you find it, then you get this whole body shiver for how awesome it's going to feel? Just had that.

#31637 Can’t wait to get back to campus, I already have 4 dick appointments scheduled.

#31636 I'm graduating this semester, and I have no regrets not talking to/dating girls during my time here. Most if not all college girls only care about partying and going to Raves, and think you're weird if you don't do either/both.

#31635 Staying in a collegetown for long made my world so small that I can't handle how my hometown is constantly modernizing. I feel disconnected and I'm liking it like this.

#31634 I believe if you are waiting for the new year to make changes to your life, you are not likely to succeed and are just setting yourself up for failure. You are waiting for an arbitrary date to start to take steps to change your life. You are either afraid or lazy if you arent starting right away. Starting doesnt even have to be starting your diet or starting to workout or whatever, starting just means you have started the process, that you have at least begun planning. If you wait to start you are going to fail so just start now, what do you have to wait for? To catch that wave of attention on social media? If thats the case, you're going to fail anyways, you arent doing it to improve yourself, you're doing it for attention. Just start and only focus on achieving your goal, not the attention youre hoping to get.