UNT Confessions
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I am currently on academic probation, not because I am dumb or lazy, but the continuous events that have been occurring in my family and with the people around us continue to either take up all my time or get me distracted and worried about their well being, I have friends, but some things are too personal for them to understand so I don't speak with them about it. I try not to blame myself for my family's issues, but they always seem to refer back to me. At times I feel all alone, and my male friends think I'm just being soft, but I genuinely need someone to be there for me. I always try to put a smile on other people's faces, but deep down inside I'm sad, hurt, and misunderstood. I'm afraid to date again after my last gf because she mostly saw me when I was down and no matter how hard I tried I couldn't keep her happy. I pray that things get better for myself as well as my family, but for the time being I just want to surround myself with good people, and hopefully get back into dating too (or at least talking to some women who don't think I only care about sex). I know I can make others happy...but I want to be happy too.