About 2 months ago I was diagnosed with severe depression. I have hidden this from everyone I know. My entire family doesn't know, all my friends or what's left of them don't know and for the life of me I feel horrible to tell anyone one of them about this only to trouble them with my problems. I'm the person they come to to talk too not the other way around. The past few weeks have been very hard for me. Two of my best friends have pretty much abandoned me and don't have the balls to tell me why they're doing this. So that's been eating away at me and add in the depression so I'm one big fucking mess right now. Not to mention the other week, hung out with this girl that I had a thing with for awhile and everything went really well. Watched a couple movies, drank a little and cuddled. It seemed like it went really well and for once in a really long time I felt normal and happy. Until I get completely ignored from her and that puts me right back where I was a couple weeks ago. I have been drinking excessively and doing a lot of drugs to try and numb the pain inside. I dont want to be like this anymore. I'm in a lonely, miserable dark place right now and I don't know how much longer I can put a smile on my face everyday and act as if everything is A-OK. Im not the type of person to resort to self-mutilation or suicide so thats not a problem for me. I'm not looking for anybody to tell me what I should do or not. I just needed to tell someone other than a highly paid therapist. This was the best choice I could think of. Even though it is anonymous I feel a big relief being able to say this. Thank you.

Gave my boyfriend a blowjob while he was driving today!! Twice no regrets!

There is an element of surprise when I hear a girl experiencing explosive Diarrhea in a public bathroom.. I don't know why I am taken off guard when I hear it.. I am a girl, and diarrhea is a part of the process of the human body.. But I still have a small giggle

An open letter to the person I overheard at breakfast saying "yeah, I'm so tired. I only got like 6 hours of sleep":
Unless you meant that that is all the sleep you've had since Tuesday night, kindly f off and take your degree in advanced whining with you.

I confess... I'm at a loss with a particular social convention. The concept of a 'girls night'. I mean, generally it means don't invite your boyfriends; but, I am a girl dating a girl. So, if my friends have a 'girls night' do I invite my girlfriend?

I have a boyfriend. And he is beyond perfect; but i still think about how my ex is doing. I don't miss him though. I just wonder about him.

The next college kid I see crossing the street wherever they feel like is getting run down. They are called crosswalks. Self-important brats need to be culled.

Last night this drunk girl assumed I was also drunk and asked me to take off my pants. I wasn't, but I did anyway. What can I say, she was attractive.